U CAME

U Came – quietly, softly without warning

Strong and defined, yet reserved and refined

U Came – touching my inner being

Showing me the path of a genuine black queen

U Came – feeling out my every move

Giving the music to dance my hearts groove

U Came – seeing my light and potential

Making way for greatness through great darkness
U Came – tasting my tears from the past
Shedding my fears for future endeavors
U Came – small and unintentional as a stationary shower of rain
And then U Came, and U Came and you wouldn't stop coming
U Came – without any intentions of stopping
Even when I asked not for you for fear of pain
U Came
U Came – smiling when there used to be crying
Beaming drops of golden rays U Came
U Came – in the image of him
And without a net, I began to fall
For U Came not welcomed but in time wanted
U Came and I fell flat on my face
U Came – because
U – R - Love

~Honiee ‘04

BACK TO BEAUTIFUL

The sorrow of missing Beautiful makes my head hurt
I hold back the salty liquid that wants to fall
And place focus on dissolving the knot in my stomach
An aching agony in search of relief to ease the disturbing thoughts of
Loss, defeat and grief
So instead, I travel BACK TO BEAUTIFUL-
Enters a bright remedy strong and soothing enough to open shuteyes
Knowing deep down inside that I have experienced a great gift
The gift of giving so much love and caring more than could be imagined
It’s in those moments that I travel BACK TO BEAUTIFUL
Back to the touch of his cheek to mine
The warmth of his hand as we would walk side by side
Our laughter in a melodic dance and tune
Intertwined with the sounds of happiness and magic
Back to passion
Beautiful had passion
Bringing me soup to bed as I lay weak and ailing
Singing songs to one another; loves expression in our own words
Best friends, Twin Flames growing to conquer the world
Beautiful really did feel so good
I travel BACK TO BEAUTIFUL-
Back to horseback riding on a warm spring day
Communicating eye to eye when there were no words to say
Reading each other’s mind with a slight quick glare
His scent lingering on my pillow and his fingers through my hair
His strong touch, guarding me safely and how our souls intertwined
The talks we would have on cold winter nights
I’d lay, as he’d hold me lending ease to my mind
Warmth
Beautiful’s warmth felt so good then
I travel BACK TO BEAUTIFUL-
Those summer afternoon water fights
Quiet Sunday morning pillow talks
Long and interesting Department store walks
Damn, Beautiful felt so good
The poetry read and written straight from the heart
Grown folk outings, wine dining and dancing
I travel BACK TO BEAUTIFUL-
Intentions of going to earths end to make Beautiful happy
Wanting badly to be pure and good to one another
Real Black Love was growing stronger and stronger
Taking shape as something unique and abnormal; but exciting and unstoppable
We truly could have been Beautifully genuine
Shared birthdays, shared holidays and the out of town wedding
Shared memories I can look back on telling me that
Beautiful is what it was and what it will always be
I will miss my Beautiful
I will miss it undeniably
This is why
I travel BACK TO BEAUTIFUL
Because Beautiful was for me,
Such a blessing!

~Honiee ’08

IF NOT ME, THEN WHO?

Growth is life and life is growth. In order to find yourself growing spiritually, mentally and physically, there are many lessons in our paths that must be mastered. I trust God to direct my path, and many times, I find myself wondering why I continue to go through some of the same things. This week it hit me! Until the lessons of my path are learned, I can expect to watch re-runs of this life of mine. As hard as it may be, I can no longer let my complacency keep me stationary. Sometimes it is better to JUST DO IT! A hard head blocks blessings. I have made the decision to be selfish. Not in a negative light, but to allow myself the freedom to do for me. Ironically enough, it feels liberating, and with that said, my path is well lit with the love of God, which is in me!

Live - Laugh - Love - Learn
I Express!

I TRUST THIS SEASON

I am entering a new season. I am experiencing things that will in due time, enhance my growth as a woman. I am also healing & I have found from experience that thru healing comes renewal, strength & wisdom.

Why do we place so much trust & expectation in other people? I can't stop asking myself that question over & over again. Could it be because we dream of perfection? Do we not know that the only human being that is worthy of trust is ones self? I have found that it is easier said than done when it comes to keeping yourself guarded once you have fallen in love. Be that with a companion, a job or material possessions.

See, we get complacent & comfortable with the fact that what we have is good & we love it, we are ok with it. However, when do we go for great, or best? Many times, we are FORCED to walk away from complacency & move toward those great or best things. Experiences such as losing that job, or being rejected by that companion or even having those material possessions stripped away from you are examples of how that force comes without warning. This is what takes you to a new season!

Is it impossible to trust that you will experience the things in this lifetime that are best for you? I don't think it is impossible. In fact, my belief is that everyday brings me a new opportunity to trust myself more & more to grow. I trust God to guide my feet on my path & I trust myself to walk it. Even though I know that there will be some bumps & bruises along the way, I refuse to give up on the one person I can trust. I refuse to give up on me.

Live – Laugh – Love – Learn
I Express!